one step closer to a dream of my life

i have two grown up dreams of my life.
(i have a lot of dreams, but these ones are grown up ones)
1. to have 2 washers and 2 dryers in my house
2. to have my house look like a pottery barn catalog.
today, i am one step closer to achieving the second.

i got new bedding. it's beautiful.
my favorite color is orange.
paired with blue.
remember the house?
well, my new bed would fit in perfectly with that house.
oh, and this is my pretty mirror. it's all so lovely.

a question thrown out to the universe

ok, so.
if you're going to advertise your window cleaning service on the window of your car,
shouldn't the window of your car be clean?

just wondering.

homeward bound. i wish i was homeward bound.

i like BYU in the summer.

it's not crazy crowded.
it's not snowing.
the grass that i want to sleep on is not taken up by 2500 other people.
the classes are shorter.

however, i miss home.
a lot.

see, you know it's a problem when you miss your summer routine at home so much that you go to google maps and virtually go from your home to the library on main street.
and you tear up.
it's a problem.
i want august to come fast. photo courtesy of

this is the library.
i would ride my bike there during the summer.
all the time.
i think i would go about 3 times a week.
i love that library.
and broken arrow.

oh, BA, are you there?
i ain't gonna live forever.
if i found you would you let me come and stay?
i ain't gettin' any younger,
and before my dyin' day,
i want space.
not just air
let em laugh in my face
i don't care.
oh, BA
i'll be there.
some day.

under pressure

ok, so for the past two days i've been putting off writing this post.
not because it's difficult.
or scary.
or weird.
but because i didn't know what to say.
you may not know this, but this post is number
100!
it's a big land mark
bigger than 50
(which i missed)
and i wanted to say something awesome in celebration.
however, my brain just isn't being creative today.
apparently, i don't work as well under pressure as i thought.

i think this song adequately illustrates my current feelings:

so, instead of me saying something amazing and intelligent, just enjoy some time with david and freddie.
under pressure
not gonna lie, the video's a little weird. however, the song is amazing, so you should listen to it and just marvel in the amazingness of bowie and mercury.

lonely escapades in provo

by lonely, i don't mean that i was lonely, but that i was alone. (i don't like running with people. you have to talk. and you're out of breath. and sweaty. and red. too many factors)

last monday, i went running.i saw some really great things.
so, i decided that this time i went running, i would take my camera.so, i did.these are some things that i found while i was running.

ps. if you've never been to "historic provo," (just go down 100 North)you should.

so, without further ado, here is provo's finest:you may think that the Christus is in a visitor's center in Salt Lake, but in fact, it is at a business in Provo. strange? i'm not sure.
the following is the whole reason i took my camera. i found a house. it's not that i want to live in it, although i would love to. but no, this is the house i would like to take my engagement pictures at. it's beautiful.isn't it adorable? i love it. actually, i would love to own it. i would love to live in that house for the rest of my life, but, probably not in provo. maybe i'll move it.

these are the rest of the pictures taken. it was just kind of fun.now what movie do these bushes remind you of? because to me, they pretty much scream "bonzai daniel-son!"

and, this next house? this house will be the one i take my christmas card pictures at, after i've taken my engagement photos at the lovely blue house.i know, that second picture is hidden behind a tree, but i wanted a picture of the green door.

this next house puzzled me. i'm still very confused by it. what's with the cylindrical door?

i must have been sick that day

so i was talking to my mom today.
i do that a lot.
we talk about everything.
toe nail polish.
the weather.
the growing unemployment rate.
today, we talked about flirting
(among other things)
and how bad i am at it.

here's what i'm pretty sure happened:
one day,
in middle school,
i had a really bad fever.
i had to stay home and watch beauty and the beast
(it's my sick movie, ok?)
when i got back to school, i asked if i missed anything important,
they said no.

they lied.

that day.
that day that i spent watching beauty and the beast?
that has got to be the day they taught the kids how to flirt.
so, i was sick that day.
because of that one sick day i took,
i missed a vital part of my education,
and there was no homework, so i couldn't make it up.

here's the problem.
i just don't know how to do it.
i really don't.
every time i try, it just comes off as me acting like an idiot.
i guess.
i try to show interest,
but it's not conveyed.
maybe i should wear a shirt.
(well, i usually am, but this one would be special)
a shirt that in big green letters says
"i'm probably interested"
not only would it show my interest,
but it would also be a good conversation starter.

or maybe i just need to go back to middle school and not miss any days.

always and never

this is a hastily compiled list of the wisdom that i have acquired over the past 21 years of my life.
i'm not really sure what has inspired me to document it, but i feel that it's important.

1. check that you locked your door at nightphoto courtesy of
i'm a little paranoid about this. i've never really had a scare, but i sure check as if i did.

2. pick up your shoes. photo courtesy of
i know, my father is right now thinking "huh? who is she to be saying this? that girl hasn't picked up a pair of shoes since thanksgiving 1988!" and yes, he would be, for the most part, right. however, as i was climbing into my bed about 4 minutes ago, i almost broke my neck by tripping over a pair of my shoes. so this little pearl of sagacity is new found. perhaps it will cause a change in me, but probably not.

3. have pretty pajamas. because we all wish we could wake up looking like audrey

this one helps a lot more than you think it would. do you ever wake up in the morning and look in the mirror and scream inside (or outside) because your hair is cowlicked and your eyes are puffy? if you have on pretty pajamas, it makes the shock a little less, and you can write off the cowlick as being pleasantly tousled. it works.

4. dance in public. photo courtesy of

ok, maybe not really in public. like, in an empty isle in the library or grocery store, or when you're on an empty street. dance in private with the possibility of it becoming public. it makes dance parties even more spontaneous and exhilarating.

5. have really good smelling laundry detergent.there are no cool pictures of laundry detergent. this is the best i could do.

don't always go by price. it's like having perfume soaked into your clothes. and it helps.

6. get a theme song. photo courtesy of

a song that makes you feel good. a song that makes you giddy. a song that changes your mood. listen to that song when your mood needs changing.

7. get in a good mood.photo courtesy of

in the words of John Cusack in Say Anything,
"How hard is it to decide to be in a good mood and be in a good mood once in a while?"
just decide, and do it.

8. take naps.photo courtesy of

i feel like this one doesn't really need explanation or persuasion.

9. cryphoto courtesy of

sometimes crying helps. it's like the physical expulsion of your problems. they're literally pouring out of you, and in the end, you feel better.

10. every once in a while, do what you did when you were a kid. photo courtesy of

swing. play monopoly. play barbies. play dress up. make daisy chains. do a cartwheel. roll down a hill. just do something that reminds you of how you felt when you were little.